KYOTKGUY and I were able to spend a good chunk of time together today, and while I've got a couple of relaxing, easy-going memories. . . . . most of my memory today is consumed with an intense discipline session.
In a moment of frustration and anger, I willingly and unthinkingly put myself into an exceptionally dangerous situation, a situation that could have very easily gotten me hurt or worse.
His goal today was to ensure that my emotion NEVER overrode the memory of the time I spent over his knee. . . . . . . . and I'm positive, beyond a shadow of a doubt, that it never will. I'm relatively safety-conscious and emotionally low-key but when I snap (which is very, very rarely), I royally snap and could care less about my safety. I've got a speed-bump there, now . . . . . . . . . a speed-bump carried in my bottom and legs that will notify my brain to SLOWWWWW down and think for just one more second.
He said today, "I love to spank you, but I hate having to spank you like that." His motivation, though, is clear and well-known to me. Yes, part of the motivation was fear of losing me to my own stupidity. . . . . . . but it was all grounded in love.
That's a session I not only HOPE to never repeat. . . . . . . . . . I KNOW I'll never repeat. My speed-bump is firmly in place. . . . . . . and I'm ready to roll.
Keagen, that's one of the ways we humans learn.
ReplyDeleteYes indeed dear girl, love is always the best teacher.
Warm hugs,
Paul.
*quietly* I learned through love, for sure, but the pain will provide a definite reminder, as well. I don't THINK I would have done it again before the session. . . . but now I KNOW I won't.
ReplyDelete*wraps arms around neck* *offers a soft pillow to sit on* I have been on the recieving end of a intense spanking from KYOTKGUY.....lova ya girl
ReplyDelete*HUGE HUG* love you keagen
ReplyDelete*huger hug back* Love you, too!
ReplyDeleteThanks for the hug, Jess. :-)