Early Summer 2011

It's been brought to my attention several times recently that I haven't updated in awhile. When I sit down to blog and I think about what's going on in my life, it all seems so commonplace and like nothing is changing. When I look back through past posts, though, I find things I've forgotten and I'm in awe at how much has changed. 


The funniest thing about time is that it's always moving -- it's in a state of perpetual change. By the mere definition, it cannot stay the same. What seems so commonplace to me, may, for you guys, be an awe-inspiring concept or a story you've been looking for or the laugh at the end of your week. 


KYOTKGUY and I took our usual trip at the beginning of June and it was spectacular, as always. We always embrace and cherish the times when we're able to spend more than a mere few hours together because those times are so rare. A friend of mine is rather fond of the quote ‎"Distance is not for the fearful; it is for the bold. It's for those who are willing to spend a lot of time alone in exchange for a little time with the one they love. It's for those knowing a good thing when they see it, even if they don't see it nearly enough..."


Truer words have never been spoken. You guys haven't seen me write much about the long-distance aspect of KYOTKGUY and I's relationship simply because it's often easier to not acknowledge it. Time spent considering and thinking about the time we spend apart almost seems to make the time we spend together less valuable. It doesn't change anything, nor will it, and I almost consider it wasted energy. That's not to say it's always easy -- some days are much harder than others. There's not a day where it's not "worth it" to me, though.

Our relationship is just as strong and just as real as ever. In the past few months, it has strengthened and deepened, but I believe that is a culmination of time and maturity. In the past couple of years, I have come a rebellious wild child to where I am today. I can't exactly describe or name where I am as I feel it changes daily. Unfortunately, there aren't road signs or mile markers on this road. KYOTKGUY has changed, too, in ways I didn't think would happen. They're subtle changes, but noticeable to me. His touch, his "style," and even his approach to spanking and Dominance and submission have shifted. 


As many of you know, KYOTKGUY and I do not have a "play" or "discipline" or "Top/bottom" relationship. We have a 24/7 D/s relationship centered on mutual respect, trust and love. While spanking is a part of our relationship on many levels (play, erotic, discipline, submission), it is not a pivotal point. Our relationship started with spanking -- and quickly flourished and bloomed in ways neither of us expected or were seeking. Our connection is forged on a much deeper level and that is part of what makes me cherish our relationship all the more. 


On a super fun note, I'm SUPER stoked to be attending the SSC (Southern Spanking Conference) this year! This is a small, invite-only party consisting of long-time friends. While it sounds a bit cliquish, we all know each other on a very intimate, vanilla level and happen to enjoy and share a delight in spanking.  The SSC is more about hanging out together, enjoying games, vanilla activities, joking and meals accented with spankings between old and close friends. :-)


I will not be playing at SSC due to a mutual choice between KYOTKGUY and myself. I will be enjoying the time with good friends (many of whom I've known for years), the fun-loving environment and the hours of talking, laughing and joking. 


I'm considering writing a new story. I haven't written one in quite some time and quite honestly, I miss it. I miss the process of getting to know a character as s/he develops, the emotional interplay that develops between characters and the path the story takes. I don't know how a story is ending when I start it -- I only have a vague idea or a general feel for the scene. 


That's all I've got for you guys right now!