What To Say, What To Say

You know . . . . . after a couple of years of running a blog, it's almost as if there's nothing left to talk about. It's easy to think that and even easier to simply allow a blog to sit stagnant. When I look at what's going on in life, though, so much has changed that it's not even funny. Most of those changes are typically ones that I'd share here or in this forum, hence, nothing here is being updated. :-)

I keep trying to come back here, over and over and over and every time I do, I realize how much my life has shifted and morphed and changed. At one time, blogging was the way I discovered my own thoughts and feelings and sharing it with you guys was the way I was able to connect and expound upon them. Now, though, it's as if I'm in so many directions that I don't know *what* to say or *where* I am. It's as if there's so much going on that there's nothing to say about it -- merely to do. The submission aspect of KYOTKGUY's and I's relationship is alive, well and thriving -- don't get me wrong -- and it changes and morphs and undulates -- and yet, there are not changes that I can mark and put my finger on and describe.

Our protocols, our routines, our day to day functioning, shifts and evolves as time passes but as that evolution occurs, it seems so commonplace that there is nothing to remark upon. I was spanked for discipline; I was spanked for submission sake; I was spanked for fun; I wasn't spanked, but we focused hard on submission. These are the day to day facts of my life, one part of the framework of my reality, as common as getting dressed in the morning and eating.

What's magical about it all, though, is that it's not really common at all -- each scenario, each session, each set-up, is different in feel, function and reality. Those small nuances are what provide the launching pad for growth, trust and love -- and it's those that I need to capture and remember.